I've been so frustrated with myself

I feel my trust fading, it's not enough lately

I think I'm ignoring my own health

I miss all the warnings, it just gets so boring

When I'm not indulging my senses every single second

Pleasure is cheap, but it sure is expensive

Where is the strength I need to change for good?

Cause I can't retreat to the way I used to be

The way I used to see myself versus everyone else

There's still more of who I was before

And I'm afraid that I'm not gonna make any progress at all

The bedroom packed with gifts I never gave

And the weight gained and the chest pain

Bleed into my days, I'm so easily stained

That I can see the seeds grow into leaves

And still not believe this is worth it, it's growing and working

That I am so much better than the way I was before

Wash me clean so I can be brand new

Cause I can't retreat to the way I used to be

The way I used to see myself versus everyone else

There's still more of who I was before

And I'm afraid that I'm not gonna make any progress at all

I'm afraid that I'm not gonna make any progress

Make any progress, make any progress

At all, at all

Wash me clean so I can be brand new

Wash me clean oh

So I can be brand new

Cause I can't retreat to the way I used to be

The way I used to see myself versus everyone else

There's still more of who I was before

And I'm afraid that I'm not gonna make any progress at all

No I can't retreat to the way I used to be

The way I used to see myself versus everyone else

There's still more of who I was before

And I'm afraid that I'm not gonna make any progress at all