Ben, you made this

You say I'm hideous, incapable of finding love

No matter what I do you say it's never enough

You say my face is dangerous

I'm losing trust

Now I'm fucking up the club every night

Going downtown to get drunk every night

Cause you hate me and my stupid fucking smile

Maybe I'd be better off dead, not alive

Maybe it'd be better if I never saw the light

In my room all the time, I can't help but to cry

I need God to come down and please help me with this fight

Cause I got demons running around in my head carefree

Every time I'm outside, people looking at me

What's the point of this life if it's treating me like shit

Couple beers in my fridge, I get lit when I feel

Turn up the music, fuck with the presets

Baby, I need you to come grab the wheel

Cause I'm fading away from reality

Fuck having worries, I've been in my motherfucking feels

My family worry about me, I could give a fuck if they love me or not

I be sitting around all day, just trying to make money and get rid of the pain

I'm trying to get lit, no time to worry about my problems

Shit in my head is pulling me down, then picking me up

These people I love don't know what the fuck is up

Studio sessions, recording my motherfucking feelings

I put in a song and they tell me it's good

I been writing and rapping, don't know if I should keep going

Just put on a smile and wave

I don't know if this shit is enough or if I'm a slave

To my own knowledge, I write in my journal every day

I be thinking about my next steps in a way

Compelling or not, Ima put it out there to the public

Don't care if they love me or hate me

Ima keep going even if it's corrupting

Even if I lose it all to the conflict

You say I'm hideous, fuck it I'm delirious

Never felt shit like this, it's not that serious

So caught up in happiness, haven't had time to be villainous

Crying to this song for the darkness

Twenty years down, how many left till I lose it

How many left till I choose to

Break down and see the end of my future

Is it cold or hot? I need to know soon

I need to know, I need to know

You say I'm hideous, incapable of finding love

No matter what I do, you say it's never enough

You say my face is dangerous, I'm losing trust

And I'm breaking, holding back tears

You can see it on my face

Let's just talk about the way that I feel

We can talk for hours, spill the beans on me right here

Is it okay if I'm right here

Just need a moment to be sad with you right now

I feel your pain like we going through the same thing

So do you still think that I'm crazy

Do you think I'm shady

All because I've been looking bad lately

I'm a mess, yeah, I know what I did to make you hate me

So what can I do to be loved

I know I'm bad, please forgive me love

I've been feeling so goddamn stuck

You say I'm hideous, incapable of finding love

No matter what I do, you say it's never enough

You say my face is dangerous, I'm losing trust

You say I'm hideous, incapable of finding love

No matter what I do, you say it's never enough

You say my face is dangerous, I'm losing trust

Yeah, I'm losing trust

Hideous, yeah