Final Confessions

I wonder God, if you hear me? Spare me a little time

Deep inside I've been screaming analyzing my life

Through these eyes all I'm seeing is this life could kill me

Help me survive, this critical time's hard to deal with

And if I seem like a skeptic Lord, I'm apologetic

Realize I'm regretting these moments I've been pathetic

Even though my intentions weren't meant for the worst

Help me focus through the chapters while I read through the verse

You see I struggle with pressure it's taken its toll

So now I'm praying to you God 'cause it's outta control

I'm feeling weight in the center takin' over my soul

My foes feeling like a million fold, give me hope, no

Finance status, broken I'm so embarrassed

Just a drunk causing havoc, a sucker for bad habits

So while I'm still valid I'm reaching for balance

Jehovah show me that a brother still matters, holla

Forgive my Father for the wrongs I have done

I wanna say that you're my only one (only one, Lord)

I'm so tired of being in pain

Please take me back to your heart again

Now I'm compelled that your principles resemble the right

You show me light through my struggles in this ebony life

Forgive me of my transgressions, I'm losing this fight

I know I'm weak in the enemy's sight, aiight?

I understand as a man I'm gon' reap what I sow

But on the other hand I'm weakest when I'm deep in the cold

No focus zone like I've overdosed I feel the noose start to choke on my throat, I need hope so

Help me walk from this hopeless war

Bring change in my course like Saul to Paul

Not one of these Benny Hinn currency frauds who gettin' rich from the poor off his altar course, come on?

Open my eyes to these phony events

I wanna die in the end with these lowly men

Not prospering over dollars and cents

Come on, people, where's your common sense?

Be honest then

Forgive my Father for the wrongs I have done? (For the wrongs I have done)

I wanna say that you're my only one (Father)

I'm so tired of being in pain (please forgive)

Please take me back to your heart again (please)

I got a bit of a past can't explain it in words

But you let me know there's always someone copping it worse

Never left me alone though my poisonous thirst

That pushed you down my priorities and stepped in the first

And every step of the way I got caught in the pain

But I was too embarrassed to come calling your name

So now I realize that my lack of attention

Got me begging out for one final confession

I know to suffer than to stand is life

I pray I take it like a man in life

When things don't go the way I planned that's life

But at the end of every path is life

I know it's hard to understand my life

'Cause I'm a victim to my past in life

And Lord, I'm nothing but a man that's right

We stick together for life we tight come on, aiight?

Forgive my Father for the wrongs I have done? (Wrongs I've done)

I wanna say that you're my only one (only one)

I'm so tired of being in pain (please take me back)

Please take me back to your heart again (yeah)

Forgive my Father for the wrongs I have done?

I wanna say that you're my only one (oh)

I'm so tired of being in pain (yes, Lord)

Please take me back to your heart again (please take)

Father

I apologize for using my gifts you blessed me with in the wrong way at times

And I don't wanna stand here and turn a blind eye to my faults

So I need help to find my way back home to the narrow road

'Cause I ain't happy here

And I ask all this in the name of your son

Amen