self sabotage

I'm still checking your location Imagine our bed with you and her Still look at pictures when we dated Now I see a girl that's at her worst My head is underwater Drowning in my panic attacks I'm sick of suffocating in my tears One day, I'll be stronger Through all the self sabotage Sufferin' through my toxic thoughts that I let carry on But in this moment, God, this really hurts like hell But I know I'll thank these lonesome nights that led Led me to myself I finally threw away your sweaters I'm going out and moving on In fact, I hadn't cried about you in forever Yet forever's but a week of being strong I'm running through the darkness Trying to get my old self back I'm sick of suffocating in my tears One day, I'll be stronger Through all the self sabotage Sufferin' through my toxic thoughts that I let carry on But in this moment, God, this really hurts like hell But I know I'll thank these lonesome nights that led Led me to myself Led me to myself Led me to myself 'Cause I make myself stronger Through all the self sabotage Sufferin' through my toxic thoughts that I let carry on But in this moment, God, this really hurts like hell But I know I'll thank these lonesome nights that led Led me to myself