im Not Okay

There's no escape Feel like, there's no escape Feel like, I'm not okay No, I'm not okay No, I'm not okay Growin' up, I was molested, by someone I trusted Growin' up, I never thought I was nothin' Always wishin' I was someone, I wasn't Until, the day that I woke up, and discovered That I am amazing Yesterday, I just had a conversation With someone, that inspired me to make this I told myself, I wasn't gonna create this I fucking hated myself Every time I look inside of the mirror Like, I was afraid of myself Because, I was different I didn't know what to do Every time that I was talkin' with somebody new I felt like they were judgin' me, too I never learned how to deal with the stress, in my life So, I learned to step in the booth I didn't know how to deal with these insecurities I've been dealin' with this immaturity Yeah, I've been lookin' for the security I never got, as a kid I was tryna protect my own little brother From it, dealin' with all of the shit, that I did 'Cause, I went through a lot Fuck, I went through a lot So, I never told anybody I never showed anybody, the scars I didn't know where to start So, I'm 'onna start from the heart Fuck, I know, this is hard Right now, I'm alone, in the dark Sitting alone, in my car I wanna help everybody that's dealin' with this Like, I'm dealin' with this So, I made 'em this song I feel like there's no escape No, there's no escape Feel like, I'm not okay No, I'm not okay No, I'm not okay And, yeah, there's no escape Feel like, there's no escape Feel like, I'm not okay No, I'm not okay No, I'm not okay Growin' up, I was molested, by someone I trusted Growin' up, I never thought I was nothin' Always wishin' I was someone, I wasn't Until the day, that I woke up and discovered That I am amazing Yesterday, I just had a conversation With someone that inspired me, to make this I told myself, I wasn't gonna create this Then, I thought About everyone, that was dealin' with All of the shit, I was dealin' with I was afraid, I was gonna be judged So, I never told anyone, I was dealin' with anything Yeah, I'm always energetic, never been pathetic Plus, I never put myself first, yeah I guess, that I never learned my own self worth, fuck Because, I was raped, yeah, I was eight What was his name? I don't wanna say But, ever since then, I've been runnin' away Or maybe, I'm just fuckin' runnin' in place Regardless It feels like a weight has been lifted up, off of my chest To tell everyone, the reason I'm depressed The reason I'm stressed I'm takin' this off of my bucket list I'm hopin' this helps somebody that I've never met 'Cause, music has got me through a lot Yeah, and I'm willin' to make a bet That it's gonna help you, too I'm hopin' it gets you through whatever you're dealing with I want you to know, there's a light, at the end of the tunnel Whatever you're dealin' with It'll be okay I feel like, there's no escape No, there's no escape Feel like, I'm not okay No, I'm not okay No, I'm not okay And, yeah, there's no escape Feel like, there's no escape Feel like, I'm not okay No, I'm not okay No, I'm not okay Feel like, there's no escape Yeah, there's no escape I was so afraid I was so afraid I was so afraid Feel like, there's no escape Yeah, there's no escape It'll be okay It'll be okay It'll be okay There's no escape Feel like, there's no escape Feel like, I'm not okay No, I'm not okay No, I'm not okay