Questioning God

Hardest song I had to ever write Hardest song I had to ever write Uh Why I feel like ima die before I can get all my words out Actions move in silence so I gotta let the verbs out Why my grandma say I can never let the words out Now I'm looking like dummy chasing all the birds now Everything thing would be so different if Barbra was still alive Reggie probably felt like my momma when her momma died Why I feel like I can never be complete without my pride How come when I writing this I feeling water in my eyes Why I feel like ima die alone when time it always flies Why a bitty tryna infiltrate my mind and compromise Why I feel like I got questions god don't even wanna answer Why Izetta die from cancer why I feel like satans dancer Why I feel like my memory bad because of all the trauma Add some bitter to the tea like I'm drinking Arnold Palmer Why I live inside a country were people can't get along Why my grandma had to die before I could get her on a song (Damn) I remember your last moments We all miss you I'm okay being alone so why sometimes my heartaches I feel Tweekeen is alone because of Tweekeens mistakes Why my nigga had to die from the same pills I was takin Why the year I found happiness my precious queen was taken Why my homies death's always come in intervals of 5 Why I feel like my biggest enemy is stuck inside my mind Why whenever jahz hit me I always make sure she's okay Why rello on my mind when I wished him the illest fate I feel good inside my heart but my head just wanna debate I Ain't felt god in so long feel like I ain't seeing the gates Insecurities anxiety's vulnerability quietly Tweekeen is always hiding me Alias is the bravery Took my heart with the thievery People never believe me I feel down so frequently Askin Ari what she see in me Maya Angelou vibes Somehow I still gotta rise I just found some extra time Let me tell you what's on my mind Tell you what's on my mind Let me tell you what's on my mind All I think about is time You ever seen a body drop that nigga take his last breath First time saying it that was almost me last year I thank god for the people that stayed around to save me I was lonely in my mind but trauma is what saved me If I didn't call probably would've veered off Took my foot and pushed off y'all would've been pissed off But what y'all gotta understand dying was not in the plan Wheel I took off my hands I just wished that it was the end But now I got a third chance (now I got a third chance) Now I got a third dance (now I got a third) And I won't waste it (and I won't waste it) And I won't waste it (and I won't waste it) This the beginning of a journey better buckle up I'm alone but it's okay better toughen up Thank you for riding with me If you listen all the way you not my fan now you my family (My family) My Family Ari: "I'll hang out with friends and feel like I feel like I'm like super happy I'm like hella funny you know I'm making people laugh and like wow okay why is that when you get home when your by yourself you're like losing your shit you know I mean I necessarily don't bet that but... I don't know"