Monsters

It feels so very strange That it could be this way Now I'm so afraid Why you want to stay Did you ever love me The way that I loved you This negativity Keeps me feeling blue Look, Is it okay to feel like running away For days till somebody wanna say something Is it ok to feel shitty and Overwhelmed by everything and anything coming Is it ok to feel like I'm not quite ok I been feeling pain Make it go away sleep is my escape dreamin it up To wake up and find I really mean nothing I made the assumption that monsters ain't under my bed And it took me a minute to realize that they are in my head And they're giving me panic attacks and anxiety I'm seeing red I'm really just fed up it feels like I'm living in Hell And I'm walking around like I'm dead cuz my face is just lifeless I'm fighting for everyone never will I ever be fought for in the end I need A little bit of happiness why am I so inadequate Demon I'm always battling, damn They always be attacking shit I ain't really havin' it I'm always on my saddest shit, damn I'm a mother fucking addict I don't mean to be dramatic No one ever really had to give a damn The love that they be giving me a scam God damn come watch me pop another fucking xan, shit It feels so very strange That it could feel this way Now I'm so afraid Why you want to stay Did you ever love me The way that I loved you This negativity It keeps me feeling blue I feel so blue I always lose I be steady trippin' gotta tie my shoes When I need you you respond so slow When you need me I'm in the call like proto I don't like to talk because I'm anti-social You already know though zero friends in total I don't even smile in the mother fucking photos That I post on the 'gram cause I don't give a damn about shit now I can fucking disappear and everybody lit now I'ma sit down and take a hit now Every now and then I take a mother fucking sip now Grrrt pow bumpin Lil Tjay Crying in the club on my god damn b-day Drive too fast on the god damn freeway Heart is up for sale so I put it on eBay He say, she say, they all fucking monsters They say they your friends but they always imposters The only way that I'ma prosper is with zero friends on my roster Someone call the doctor my flows too sick I'm off-topic Sucker for pain, but I got logic When fake people wanna hop on my dick And they stab my back and they talk they shit and they talk they crap I just take they hits, damn It feels so very strange That it could be this way Now I'm so afraid Why you want to stay Did you ever love me The way that I loved you This negativity Keeps me feeling blue (Doo doo do-do doo Doo doo do-do doo Doo doo do-do doo)