Losing My Cool

Baby, you didn't think that I'd be clueless? 'Cause I don't know who you think you foolin' (I don't think you're foolin' me) If this is real love 'Cause I'm tryin', but I can't lie (don't never think of foolin' me) I'm losin' my cool (losin' my cool) I'm losin' my cool 'Cause I'm tryin', but I can't lie (turn it up a little bit) I'm losin' my cool I'm losin' my cool (Uh, yeah) life of a youngin Tryna balance my pain, became my struggle I was already deep off in my thoughts, and feelin' funny How the ones that I love the most just can't keep it a hunnid? I never thought I'd get this far, I used to doubt myself (oh yeah) God dealt me this hand, I used to out myself (yeah) Breakin' in houses when I was younger, I was wild myself They told me 10 at 14, I went and found myself In my cell writin' raps, often thinkin' 'bout Deja Before she died, I told her my dreams and my aspirations I used to cry just thinkin' 'bout all the shit she was facin' I know she smilin' lookin' down 'cause I finally done made it I love my lil' brother, he feel like big brother be trippin' That shit just make me so damn mad that he don't fuckin' listen And my big brother really gifted, but he really trippin' He tell me him and his addiction Ain't none of my business (none of my business, Lord) In his brain, he rock star livin' (yeah) Yeah, and we was raised the same, but we way different (hm) Either way and if you right or wrong, I'm forever with you (forever with us all) It's safe to say I changed the game, I made it out of the trenches Later I would come to find that was just the beginnin' I still gotta cross all these oceans, these mountains and rivers Life of a rapper got me on the edge, I keep my pistol Gotta watch my back 'cause I don't trust these hoes or trust these niggas Tell me, who can you trust when people so deceivin'? (Yeah) Don't want no love 'cause she gon' leave, and come back when she need me She lookin' dead in my eyes, lyin' like a demon How you slap the hand that had fed you, bite the hand that feed you? (Oh, yeah, yeah) I don't get it neither, yeah, yeah I don't get it neither My family don't see Nuni, they see Rod Wave (Rod Wave, yeah) So mentally and physically, I stay far away, yeah Listen, I I regret sayin' I want 'em dead for switchin' sides That night he died, I couldn't cry, although I tried, uh (Lie) I can't lie, yeah (I'm losin' my-) I'm losin', uh, losin' my cool I lose my cool sometimes, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah I lose my cool, I lose my cool sometimes, yeah Crazy life for the youngin Tryna battle my pain, became my struggle They don't ask me how I be feelin', just askin' for money Wonder why all the people I love can't keep it a hunnid, yeah I don't want you to ever think you foolin' Don't ever think you foolin' me Need real love, mm-mm-mm (I can't lie) Yeah (I'm losin' my-) yeah I lose my cool, I lose my cool sometimes