So Much Pain

Anger built up deep inside leave me to exploding I need it Worst pain I felt was when my mama died I can tell you bout them nights I stayed up cried I tried to count every drop Boy you know how many tears I cried But I gotta make it cause I got my daddy by my side He said son get on your knees and pray Well daddy its too late, Im feeling like i lost my faith Im in this dark room going crazy, I aint thinking straight Know if I lay off in this grave the pain will go away Take it all away Im pouring syrup in the cup cause I need something to lean on My brother getting drunk and high he say he wanna be numb Everybody ask if you ok i wish they would leave me 'lone Im still tryna call you damn Ma can you pick up the phone I watched you take your last breath and still cant believe she gone God don't make mistakes but right now feel like he done me wrong Replay this watched them roll her off down the pavement Any last words and boy you know I couldn't say shit I Tried to be a man and look but nah I couldn't face it I'm going 150 down the road tryna escape it I'd rather run and hide from all this emptiness inside It's hard to live a whole life when you're dead inside Cause there's so much pain And its like I aint stop crying since April 30th when i got that called It hasnt been a day I felt alive since May the 19th when you took your last breath Everything I did was for you and It seem like life been on pause for a decade Im still tryna find The reason to keep going cause you was my everything So tell me what Im posed to do When everything I did was for you You left my heart broken, I feel like its been stolen Im hoping its you every time my door open You made the whole hood cry, its hard to sleep at night They tell me you don't question God but every night I ask him why Why you had to do this to me man Planning my mama funeral when we had other plans Most of y'all don't understand I lost the one thats close to me, no please don't get close to me I aint ate in 24 rest in peace to Kobe Bean I still replay this watched them roll her off down the pavement Any last words and boy you know I couldn't say shit Tried to be a man and look but nah I couldn't face it Going 150 down the road tryna escape it I'd rather run and hide from all this emptiness inside Hard to live a whole life when you're dead inside so much pain