Too Far Gone

I'm throwing up on the sidewalk It's 2:00 am everybody left I just embarrassed myself for an hour Now I'm sitting in a neighborhood I don't even recognize I didn't even want to go out I kind of thought it would help just a little But I'm lying to myself 'cause I know in a weeks time I won't try to realize This ain't no way to live so why does everybody brag about it I guess it easier to fill yourself with poison While your holding on to moments you can glorify And I've been stuck for awhile now cause I've been saying this for three damn years Am I ever gonna change will a make it out alive or Will I crumble will I fall? Will anybody care at all? Am destined to be damaged? Am I too far gone? Believe me when I say It ain't fair to feel this way But I'll poison myself till I'm too far gone I'm driving home when I shouldn't I didn't even remember the drive How could I be so selfish every time that I feel helpless I crossed through every single line I'm not convinced that I'm living 'cause if I was I'd be able to feel something Maybe it's a part of me or maybe it's just hard to see What everyone else can find Theres gotta be a reason This lifestyle ain't meant for dreamers But they'll tell you its okay Waste your 20's away Cause your only young for a moment And I've been stuck for awhile now Cause I've been saying this for three damn years Am I ever gonna change will a make it out alive or Will I crumble will I fall? Will anybody care at all? Am destined to be damaged? Am I too far gone? Believe me when I say It ain't fair to feel this way But I'll poison myself Till I'm too far gone And how long will it take Till I'm beaten down Bruised then break Still you can find me in the evening I'll be too far gone Yeah I'm too far gone