Testimony

Ayy, it started out right in the womb Yeah, It sound crazy, but I passed I was in my momma's stomach when that Semi made her crash In her thoughts, her baby died, so all her feelings was unmatched Know that trauma gon' hit deep if she can't never get me back In the hospital, she cried, and not because all of her pain It's cause my heart was never beating, doctor said I could be saved And my momma couldn't think of nothing better, so she prayed Out of no where I was breathing, God showed up and made a way True story, I'm a miracle child They like, Kijan was in the world And now he's spiritual now Glorifying God, but all my friends Say they ain't feeling me now It's kinda crazy cause they always tryna figure me out Yeah, see I grew up in church, my momma raised me there But I ain't never listen Parents got divorced right as a kid so I lost plenty feelings Tell me why I always felt alone When I got plenty siblings The devil really tried so bad with all this pain, to made me feel it Yeah, I was a bad kid in school I ain't never had no passion for rules I was always moving fast I was steady tryna blast me a tool Was a jit that stayed in class with them blues But I could never let my past kill my mood Then I moved to Atlanta, I was with the wrong ones Smoking weed and drinking Hennessy from day to no sun I thought that hooping was my dream till it became no fun Then I start rapping bout the sex and the guns Tell me how bad does it feel when they hating on you Tell me how bad does it feel when they wanting you to die Or when you love somebody bad and then they trade up on you How can I believe this real when they don't care about when I cry I was mentally hurt but I couldn't just fix up my mind Swear my soul was just bleeding from all the times it was tied Suicide was like creeping up on me, I told it bye I was starting to feel hopeless so I brought God on my side And I can never look back, I know where I stand now Steady keeping God first, I'm seeking his hand now Fill me up with blessings, I don't ever need no handout I ain't gon' lie, I feel like Jesus Christ my only friend now