Sugar & Cream (Demo)

I've started taking my coffee black again Not out of maturity But because it feels safe to me And this empty feeling It's kind of freeing Like maybe now he'll see me I've done this before But this is different I've fallen too deep And I don't think I can fix it I wanna get skinny out of spite I wanna be pretty then he might Change his mind So I don't want sugar or cream It feels like it could be the death of me Hunger in the hands of my scale again I know it's not healthy I've learned how to be stealthy Swore only ten more Oh no, you can't stop me It's the only way to be your somebody I've done this before But this is different I've fallen too deep And I don't think I can fix it I wanna get skinny out of spite I wanna be pretty then he might Change his mind So I don't want sugar or cream It feels like it could be the death of me Why do I change for you Stomach pains for you No, you don't see me that way But I'm dying for you too You don't have to say a word I'll make my body hurt for you You know I've done this before And it's no different I've fallen too deep And I don't wanna fix it I'm tired of trying to change out of spite I just wanna be someone that I like I'm tired of trying to morph into your type So I'll take sugar and cream Cause no lack of calories Will make you see me