Can't Find the Man

Lately, I've been down and I've stayed down And I've been hard to be around, but you Keep coming home And I hate being lost, but I've stayed lost Loving me comes at a cost to you 'Cause when you're close I feel your heartbeat fading I don't know if I could save it If you leave, well, that's on me No, I can't find the man you fell in love with The one who made you blush, and Smile and laugh, and feel alive I know you're holding on for hope of healing But I'm not sure, he's breathing And I'm not strong enough to fight I keep digging through our memories Through all our years, right back to our first kiss But I can't find the man you fell in love with Nothing's going right No, I can't hide all the broken parts of me inside You see 'em all It's not my bad, it's not my own And it's not fair for you to hold me while I fall 'Cause I feel your heartbeat fading I don't know if I could save it If you leave, well, that's on me No, I can't find the man you fell in love with The one who made you blush, and Smile and laugh, and feel alive I know you're holding on for hope of healing But I'm not sure, he's breathing And I'm not strong enough to fight I keep digging through our memories Through all our years, right back to our first kiss But I can't find the man you fell in love with Don't stick around I'll only drag you down beyond the ground Until you drown inside my heartbeat Who am I now? I'm just a broken, hopeless version Of the person that you fell in love with I guess I'm not the man you fell in love with