Meant To Be

Maybe who I am is who I was meant to be I live an hour from the town where I grew up It's been a decade since the first time I threw up Still feel the pressure, hyperventilating Over numbers on a page that could make or break me 60 minutes from the house of my first love 30 miles from where I threw my first punch A cracked rib and the taste of the pavement Heard a voice say, "Yeah you'll make it, if you just Take it slow," no, I wanna speed up Towards a goal I could never dream up at 15 But what do you know at 15? Now I Stare at the reflection looking back at me Praying to a god this isn't make believe Hoping that one day I'll find some inner peace Maybe who I am is who I was meant to be Every time I look, I see a different face But I don't wanna change depending on the place Hoping that one day I'll find some inner peace Maybe who I am is who I was meant to be Graduated, got a degree In a field, in a city I'll never see again And I'm still wondering when I'll feel Happy with the choices I've made The people I've lost, the bridges I break The stakes, they seem higher now So far from the ground, I should Take it slow, no, I wanna speed up Towards a goal, I could never dream up at 15 But what do you know at 15? Now I Stare at the reflection looking back at me Praying to a god this isn't make believe Hoping that one day I'll find some inner peace Maybe who I am is who I was meant to be Every time I look, I see a different face But I don't wanna change depending on the place Hoping that one day I'll find some inner peace Maybe who I am is who I was meant to be I just wanna quiet all the voices in my head Saying, "You won't ever make it in the end" I just wanna block out all the pain and the hate From the people I used to call my friends I just wanna rest but the stress causes pain in my chest Yeah, making it hard to breath I just wanna wake up in the morning and be proud of me, now I Stare at the reflection looking back at me Praying to a god this isn't make believe Hoping that one day I'll find some inner peace Maybe who I am is who I was meant to be Every time I look I see a different face But I don't wanna change depending on the place Hoping that one day I'll find some inner peace Maybe who I am is who I was meant to be