Keep Me in the Open

I don't know if I blame you for being so distant But I'm tryna be real with you And god, it's been a hell of a week And I just wanna relate to you in a true way If it means being here with you Then hey, I am trying to be I'll always struggle to think of you in a harsh way I know that it's weird But I still see you for the human beneath I wish that I was in love with your endless bullshit But I'm a "heart-in-the-gutter" type Asleep on a stranger's knee I'm getting used to the sleepless hours from sundown The terrible dreams that lead me inward To terrible truths But in my blood Some electric holy yearning Carries an impulse to get shitfaced on you Tell me how I can do this thing Tell me how I can help this thing go easily 'Coz I'm trying, honeybee Tell me how I can beat this thing Tell me how I can make this beast die easily Goddamn it, honeybee And get a load of the kid in the Gang Green t-shirt They were the gateway band A pastor and the teacher to me I used to wanna be real with the things they believed in But since we've been talking I'm not sure if I believe anything Take a look at the girl with the long range rifle The one with the crew cut She reminds me of a version of you Laying low in a field some place in Mosul Wholly emulsified by fear and aversion to truth When did everything get this weird? How the fuck did it start? Did you ever believe in me? Was it always so hard? Tell me how I can do this thing Tell me how I can help this thing go easily 'Coz I'm trying, honeybee The line is close The wait is hardly normal So just be real In any way you can be The heart is closed But keep me in the open 'Coz I deserve better than this The line is close The wait is hardly normal So just be real In any way you can be The heart is closed But keep me in the open 'Coz I deserve better than this Yeah I deserve better than this And I deserve better than this 'Coz I deserve better than this And I deserve better than this 'Coz I deserve better than this