Lost

It's hard to stay away some days but you know I try I try so hard to pave the way but I'd rather fly Reality just set in Don't really know where I'm heading Back to your arms girl I'm betting And I don't really know why Life is a gamble, so I roll the dice And pray for the odds It's all a facade Tryna break even Shootin' craps But see low green I need more green All the money riches and whatever's between Devil on my left, angel on my right My mind is ambidextrous, in the darkness I can see the light My words illuminate every time I write I wish my mind was bulletproofed Anxiety through the roof I need 200 proof to start telling my truths Jack of all trades, shit I gotta choose What I'm willing to lose, who I'm willing to lose Sacrificed myself on the alter of love And I found a new love this my Destiny Child please child the game raised me I could be pushing daisies nah I'm not fugazi It's hard to stay away some days but you know I try I try so hard to pave the way but I'd rather fly Reality just set in Don't really know where I'm heading Back to your arms girl I'm betting And I don't really know why Shout out to those that can relate This shit right here is my escape I've been trapped, and afraid But I know amazing things await I know what's meant for me will find it's way to stay Everything in my head is a mistake I don't know right from wrong I'm often questioning my place I need someone to tell me what's my fate Because I'm losing all my faith And I'm tired of all the games I play enough of them when I'm home When I'm gone and I'm a ghost What will I be remembered for? All the issues in my head I pray they diagnose Not one to brag or boast, sometimes I do the most But above all I'm just tryna stay afloat Because I feel I'm drowning deep down in my thoughts alone I don't owe nobody shit and on that note It's hard to stay away some days but you know I try I try so hard to pave the way but I'd rather fly Reality just set in Don't really know where I'm heading Back to your arms girl I'm betting And I don't really know why