Without drugs I'd be dead

Oh im wasted all the time But i need drugs inside my veins to stay alive Abuse myself in hopes that i can tame in my mind I lay my head down will i make it past tonight Hold on wait Im a fake Looking in the mirror i can barely see my face Regreting all the times i asked somebody for some space Cause all i need right now is someone to friend, I need a friend Man im faded Im wasted Complaining that i cant take it But not changing Amazing Now will i ever face me Hide behind the drugs inside my brain Its a cycle stuck in maze Crave euphoria i cant change Palpitations i cant tame Ask my mumma check my vitals even though i know im a nurse She has no idea her son barely made out last year If i died right now then would i go and finally heal all of the pain But im afraid that if die then god will never ever save me When i look into my mirror All i sees a boy turned to a creature So much pain inside cant see his future So he sheds more tears these days its like a river Hide behind the drugs inside my brain Its a cycle stuck in maze Crave euphoria i cant change Palptations i cant tame Ask my mumma check my vitals even i know im a nurse She has no idea her son barely made out last year Oh im wasted all the time But i need drugs inside my veins to stay alive Abuse myself in hopes that i can tame in my mind I lay my head down will i make it past tonight