Ghosting Myself

Told all my friends that "I'll be there if you ever need me" Can't say the same words to myself Even when I'm bleeding I make the plans I break too easy Maybe next time I'll feel my feelings Telling myself that I'm strong I don't know why I'm always ghosting myself Should love me more than anyone else But still no matter how hard I try I'm always ghosting myself I disappear I leave the room, I burn out slowly Hide from the world Hide from my thoughts Hiding gets lonely All of my memories slipping, fading I'm getting tired of dissociating Ooh sometimes it hurts to be strong I don't know why I'm always ghosting myself Should love me more than anyone else But still no matter how hard I try Drowning still won't ask for help I really put me through hell Ghosting myself