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Spending Friday night alone, I'm reading campus fratboy porn Strewn on the table for my roommate when he finally gets home But just one night ago, three flights ago, I'm back in Michigan Another trip I won't remember, appreciate much when I'm dead, oh And the hotel where I slept that night was surely haunted, then Because every hour I woke up feeling so watched and wanted And I think I remember that from when we met Which feels so insignificant, or maybe odd now to admit, it's all in retrospect, oh And so, I spent the winter bundled up, pretending I was sane And giving up the things I love the most because they felt like pain And it's so obvious, this jaded bunch We don't believe in ghosts and such We watch the hunt incredulous, but cannot look away And you looked at me like I was a piece of meat So, I was a piece of meat for a time But you were a vegetarian, so I became a vegetarian Then when you started eating meat, I also started eating meat And I lied to all my friends, said I was happy when I wasn't And you lied to all your selves, said I could give you what you wanted But it all feels so much bigger than some blame-filled lonely break up like all our narratives and mortality only distill to Oh my God, we're gonna die We're gonna die, maybe it's gonna be alone We're gonna die, maybe it's gonna be alone, and no one will find the things we left behind Because Because we Because we never thought to leave a fucking archive