Abeyance

As the candles yawned, My world grew darker 'Til barely a detail remained Parchment and smoke Through distant chimes Moths carried by the breeze Her finger to my lips, I am stilled in an instant I sip, and I'm numbed From here the path winds backwards At first I see my entering And then steps in reverse Descent where I had climbed To pass where I had fallen Familiar, all is frayed And yet I cannot abide Beyond my eyelids, I have died Days are merging quickly now, Into years that spiral from my chest They pass but leave no mark Familiar, all is skewed And yet I cannot reflect Beyond my eyelids, I have died Yet I collapse into youth Familiar, all is frayed And yet I cannot abide Beyond my eyelids, I have died I swallow forgotten words To gain what was lost And lose what was gained Until neither is real Behind my head, her hands hold no weight I have reached a beginning, But somehow I do not stop I fall through the first moment To find that there is more As light cascades Through the hole my body has torn Already, it is closing