Last Call

Guess I'ma talk my shit like Kanye did on this joint

And they ask and I'll tell 'em

This my joint right here

Here's to my past

It's all over, it's the last call

To all my ladies

Yeah

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na

The last call for alcohol

So won't you raise your glass for me?

Here's to my past

So won't you raise your glass for me?

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na

It never really mattered to much to me

Here's to my past

That I had too many, honestly

Yes, you are my lady

All that really mattered was you're my girlfriend

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na

And baby, that's all that mattered to me

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na

So won't you raise your glass for me?

Here's to my past

So won't you raise your glass for me?

Yes, you are my lady

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na

It's crazy, though

These people always wanna talk about my past and my datin' history

I wan' know why it's such a hot topic

I know what it is, if I'm bein' honest with 'em

I'm a hopeless romantic

Nah, I call it a fearless romantic

'Cause I got all the hope in the world

That one day I might really find love

But you gotta go into it head first

Fearless, scared of nothin'

Ready to just hit that fantasy, that

That whimsical idea of what love really is

Like not givin' a fuck

Just like, "Yo, I love her"

I done that a few times

Shit, I remember the first time

Real talk, this shit go

All the way back to middle school

I remember, man, there was this girl named Ebony

First girl to ever break my heart

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na

Man, I remember how she was like 5'9"

And in junior high, shoot, I was like 4'11"

I remember she used to have to lean against the lockers

For, for a lil' **** to kiss her

I be on my tiptoes

I was in love with that girl so much

Hell, she had the, the hairstyle with the little fan pony tail

Pressed up with the baby hairs on the side of the cheek, ooh, damn

Yo, she was so cold

And I remember 'cause I came from a church home

Pops was preachin' and all that

So I couldn't hangout on the weekends

So I would be in my room writin' her love notes and poems, wait it out

Wait till Monday, and come to class, bring her a flower that I picked

Picked up on the way to the bus stop

Give her my lil' love poem

And she would kiss me, that's the first girl I ever french kissed

And I used to put like mad jolly ranchers in my mouth

'Fore I would kiss her

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na

Just so you know your breath game was on point

It's like, yo, I never felt anything like that

Just love

And all the homies would tell me

Like, "Yo, Ebony ain't really what you think Ebony is"

I'm like, "What you talkin' 'bout man?

I write poems to this girl. I love this girl. I'ma marry this girl"

And the homies was like, "Nah, that ain't the one"

I'm like, "What you mean?"

He's like, "Yo, she stay in the projects, down the way

Couple of cats from the high school be doin' what they do with her"

I'm like, "Nah, not my Ebony"

Later to find out it was my Ebony

Man, shit broke my heart

But it was all good, you know

I was on my Fillmore Slim shit, ay

I was gon' keep on pushin' it

Get my heart broke, I keep, keep truckin' it can be mended

So I move back with my moms

'Cause that was in North Carolina

And you know I was gettin' ready for my high school and all that

So I had to step up my game

We started a clique called PJK, Pimps Just Kickin' it

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na

I was on my pimp grind now

I was never gonna be hurt again

I don't care what it was

It was just hollerin' at as many chicks as I possibly could

And it didn't really even matter, I remember

And I met this one chick named Nikia

She was like a year younger than me, cold

Pops was, you know, serious in the streets

And she was beautiful, light skin

So, like, but then at the same time

'Cause you know you go, met these chicks at the skatin' rink

So you was meetin' chicks every night

So same night I met Nikia, I also met some chick named Danika

And they call her Nikki, so like

So I don't know, I think it was like, Nik, Nikia, Nikki, Danika

It was all, it was crazy, so

And I fell in love with both of them at the same time

That was the first time I felt like I was in love with two girls at once

And I didn't really know 'cause they, they lived in

Two totally different parts of the, of the hood, and

You know, one thing came to another

That was high school

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na

So, you know, that don't really last

Shit, keep datin' in the ninth grade

You're datin' your partner in the tenth grade

And by the time ya'll get to eleventh grade

Everybody datin' somebody else, so

I got outta high school, I scathed I guess

Yeah, you know, I was about sixteen

Just started drivin' that's when the lil' career started

To pick up some steam, started goin' to Hollywood

Met this gorgeous, talented, amazing young lady

We'll call her Lexi

Ah, man, we was doin', I was tryna do it right

For the Lord, on that time, she was takin' me to church every Sunday

With her family, family was amazin', strong, beautiful, black women

But, you know, my heart got a little shaky over there too

'Cause I remember when we first started off

That's when I learned about the game

That's when I learned about the entertainment industry

I'm head over heels for this chick, right

And she ain't takin' me no kinda seriously

'Cause she had a crush on this R&B singer ****

I ain't gon' say his name 'cause he's probably wifed up or somethin'

Probably he's still wifed up so I'ma just keep that what it is with

As a teenager, I remember I was waitin'

All night for her to just call me so we could talk on the phone

Found out she was at this ****'s hotel, like, ah

That's when I knew, I was like, I gotta get my bars up

So I mean, that lasted pretty much as long as I need it to last

As I got a little older

And I wanna say the next time I fell madly in love

Like obsessed, like super obsessed

I was like seventeen

Was this young lady named Megan

She was doin' her thing

Remember the first time she took me to an awards show

It blew my mind

She was nominated for a NAACP award

And I drove all the way from Daygo

On like three tires, I cop-copped a flat in the rain

In like a rented tuxedo, I was like, "I'ma make it"

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na

One of the most amazin' nights of my life

Again, I was just in love with the idea of bein' in love

Thought this was gonna be my one, this was my best friend

We gon' get married, name my kids this, all of that

Ours wasn't up though, had a lot of work to do

So you know, I tried to focus, but that shit was hard

I mean, this girl had me goin' crazy

Right, I remember was at eighteen years old

I had just bought my first Range Rover

I was startin' in Hollywood

I remember I had landed, and I drove all the way out to her house

Like in canyon country, middle of the night, fresh off the plane

Just to show her my new Range Rover

Just to see how I was stuntin'

Let her know that I was headed just like the older guys in Hollywood

I'm ballin', didn't give me nothin'

Dry, sent me home packin'

Middle of the night, like two, three in the mornin'

Brand new Range Rover, bumpin' 112

Damn near cryin' on the way home

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na

Shouldn't even be drivin' this late, eighteen years old

Remember crawlin' up Laurel Canyon, that's like a windy road

In the hollywood hills

Must have fell asleep or somethin'

All I know is I saw car spinnin', street sign come through my windshield

Car flip, eighteen years old, totaled a Range Rover

Chasin' bacon

Like I said, I, I was gettin' my career up

You know, I was finally makin' a couple dollars

Got my mom crib, all that type stuff

I got my mom out the hood

I ain't get her a crib yet, just I got her out the hood

It was like a little townhouse, condo we was rentin'

But it was better than the, better than the Section 8 living

But damn right, another blast form the past came in

You know my high school sweetheart's there

So I was doin' it big

You know, saw the totaled Range Rover

Saw the little leased crib in Hollywood Hills

And we start kickin' it again

You know, rekindling' somethin', but

Ended up, uh, a night of passion turned into a pregnancy

I was only like just turnin' nineteen

I was like, "Damn, what I'ma do?"

Man, prayed about it, I didn't know

But I was like, "Look, I'm a man, I guess, like it's time to man up

Step up to the plate," did everything I could possibly do

I remember this was crazy, man, real talk, remember I got a call

My expecting mother-to-be that, remember it, it was on 9/11

I was in London, workin'

And like the 9/11, 2001

She calls and said, "Man, today's a crazy day

Planes flyin' into buildings

And I miscarried this mornin'"

Like shit, that's crazy

But, you know, from that point on, I was tryin' to get right with the Lord

I was tryin' to get right with God

I said I wanna, you know, I wanna walk the right path

I felt like all these things were happenin' in the universe for a reason

I just wanted to be the best individual I could be

So I went celibate

Celibate for like a year, and almost a year and a half, I was

And, you know, things was happenin' in my life

Things was poppin, you know, I, right, music career was takin' off

Drumline, I had booked Drumline

You know, and then that's why I didn't even do, like I love Zoe to death

But I was celibate, and she, I think she had a boyfriend at the time

So I wasn't even, as much chemistry we had in that movie

I was just tryna do right and be the best Christian I could be

Of course, I had a crush on her, you know

Do whatever to make the characters have chemistry

Hangin' out, all of that, but super respectful

Um, but I remember at that same time I had met this

Amazing, Christian young lady

She was a dancer, let's just call her DC

And I remember she prayed with me

To make sure I got all my lines right

And we were always goin' to church three, four times a week

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na

This was how God-fearin' she was celibate like me

You know, we gon' do it right, we doin' it for marriage

Come to find out, no joke

She was fuckin' one of the dude in NSYNC

Shouts out, those are my guys

You know, we was label mates at the top

And that's, that's what made it even worse, man

And I don't know if it was durin' the time

Or however the play was, I just know my heart was broke

I had proposed to this chick in Hawaii

Now remember that I ain't even 21 years old yet

But that's how much of a hopeless romantic I am

Broke my heart, man

Messin' with some dudes that was super poppin' at the time

Another lesson I learned in this industry

Like, "Dang, is this how it's gon' be?"

So I was so cold on her from that point on

By the time I got to my next movie

I met this young lady by the name of Christina Milian

But she already knew where my head was

She knew my heart was broke

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na

I was like, like explainin', "I just wanna be your friend

I don't, I don't wanna get involved

I'm not relationship material, I'm tired of gettin' my heart broken"

She was just a real solid one with me, we was

We was cool, we was best friends for a long time

Of course, the best friends turn into other things

And I fell in love with her too

But I still kept my ideal structure

I still maintained that, look, I'm not gonna be in a relationship

I'm not goin' through this

And it's all about honesty

And come down to it, we wasn't bein' honest with each other

You know, and I take full blame, you know what I mean

She was goin' through my phones

You know, doin' young girl stuff

My two-way pager at the time

She had tapped into it

She was on her MacGyver shit

She figured out all the codes

Uh, and you know, there's chicks always entertainin' that

She wasn't too fond of, even though I wasn't keepin' nothin' from her

I'm the type of dude, especially back then

I was like, "Look, you wanna know somethin' about me

I'ma get you the answer"

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na

So, that didn't end the way I wanted it to end

Again, there, we was doin' everything

And I thought that was gon' be the one too

I be thinkin' all of 'em gon' be the one

That's my problem

A fearless romantic, but look

And from there it was many more uh, proposals and engagements

And marriages, I would keep goin', but we, over fifteen minutes already

On this outro, so, I'ma have to do a part two on the next mixtape

Or somethin' so ya'll can really, it even get even crazier

Get even wilder, so more actresses, R&B singers

Kardashians, make a star of baby mamas

And of course, models

Make sure ya'll get the next mixtape

I know got this one, it's that, Calling all Models

Hashtag Calling all Models

Model Music is comin', hashtag Model Music

I'ma be talkin', that's me in it, the whole incredible game

But I'ma get a little bit more intimate

On my joint, and just let ya'll know, I gotta keep tellin' ya'll this

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na

It's the Last Call

Hopefully I'll be able to find real love one day

To be continued

So won't you raise your glass for me?

So won't you raise your glass for me?