Place To Start

I don't have a leg to stand on Spinning like a whirlwind, nothing to land on Came so far, never thought it'd be done now Stuck in a holding pattern waiting to come down, oh Did somebody else define me? Can I put the past behind me? Do I even have a decision? Feeling like I'm living in a story already written Am I part of a vision made by somebody else? Pointing fingers at villains but I'm the villain myself Am I out of conviction with no wind in the sail? And too focused on the end and simply ready to fail 'Cause I'm tired of the fear that I can't control this I'm tired of feeling like every next step's hopeless I'm tired of being scared what I build might break apart I don't want to know the end, all I want is a place to start Oh, oh I don't want to know the end, all I want is a place to start Oh, oh Hey Mike, uh, just calling to uh, you know, send my condolences Hey man, it's Mark, just, um Calling to check in on you, see how you're doing What up Mike? Just calling to see how you're doing Check in with you a little bit Wanna obviously send my love and support and, um Just let you know I'm here for you I know you're super busy, didn't wanna bother you, um Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking about you Give me a call back if you want, if not, I get that too, um But I'm sure I will see you and or talk to you sometime soon Alright bud, hope you're hanging in there See ya