Refill

And I still stay high just more lowkey now I quit the lean and OE, it only slowed me down Been tryna get a hold of myself, 'cause you would never hold me down My new girls miss the old me now And shit i think I hate myself Lately I just ain't myself Tryna save everybody else and I can't even save myself Disgusted in the mirror Tryna function at this function I ain't even wanna be here But I gotta show face more I gotta see my place more I'm used to being homeless I don't ever like to stay long So how could I expect you to wait When I been waking up lately and forgetting the state Stay in a daze so I'm spaced out forgetting the day Tryna remember why the fuck I even get in this game it's like Every time I see my nieces they older Ain't even see em grow up What if they needed a shoulder And the girl I love is still on the block I left Think my old friend is smoking rocks again I just wish I could talk to him I just wish we could start again to relive this shit Before the city took our innocence Tryna play the hand I'm dealt From where they dealing shit I can't even deal with shit Fuck rap and a deal n shit I feel guilty My old homies is still in the field really Probably screaming fuck me so I don't know how to feel really They all said they love me look around they ain't still wit me A lot that's concealed in me A lot of it's ill Getting high so the pain'll stop When I was younger I used to think I could save the block Now I'm spending Bands like I don't know how to save a lot My ex saying I changed a lot I can't even say that it's not True All this fame I forgot Lou All this drink I forgot you At least I did until the morning I used to go places people knew me so I could feel I'm important I used to want people to see me and now I can't avoid it And it still ain't filling this void I don't know what's real anymore I'm lying to people I love I don't think I feel anymore A lost boy with lost marbles I lost star and found stardom I found me when I lost all em yeah I dream about you and I don't know what it means yeah Some Jean Grey shit, I don't know what it seems like but I fell a fiend, and rose a Phoenix my flow the meanest You ain't get the vision, I always seen it Fuck the scene I seen what it does to people so fuck it y'all could keep it I'll die the meanest and live the nicest I didn't write this I bombed the paper like isis A bad vibe is in your words you not speaking I could peep it so I'm defeating Anyone thinking they running this race that I started With the baton they never gave me I'll take it the farthest I need million dollar mansion you thinking apartments Guess thats what set us apart dog you thinking in boxes And I left that, kid from the west that Said fuck dealing, no drug cured em I'm stuck ill and Wayne before prison too dedicated so fuck ceilings And fuck feelings, in this cycle of life in one wheeling Training wheel rappers be bragging bout how they never falling Ain't change they number but wonder why I was never calling I call a spade a spade, hands I'm dealt I bet I play blind folded and still black jack while I call your bluff All these rappers you calling tough shit was all a front I never fronted or backed down it was all or nothing Remember days that I ain't eat and got a smaller stomach Remember we was smoking weed they on a stronger substance now And some of 'em turn they back on me I left home with no intentions of turning back homie The drugs stopped working while I'm battling this I was broke all I had was reality checks Losing people over business and they say don't take it personal it isn't but I'm starting to think different Yeah but I started to think listen Fuck the dissing and who's missing remember why even I started this mission I can't do shit if my heart isn't it My minds gone and man that shit has been gone for a minute But then again, everybody I ever met up in this game shady ironic I'm the one that they compare to Em I played crazy and got lost in that shit on some Heath ledger shit But still he'd never quit I'm from painkiller paradise where E wet and spliffs All they know I told myself that I would be better bitch yeah Sometimes I wish I woulda picked up a different profession But how else could I deal with this built up aggression Fucked over so many times but I still been finessing Shit sometimes I think I'm cursed but it's still been a blessing I lit the fuse, woulda been quit but got shit to prove My shit list is a page or two I charge it to the game, and paid my dues So listen dude I got shit to move From the same hood some as killers but I got different views I speak ill, it's love peace but I beat kill Each scale Doc said I'm sick shit I agree still I'm prescribed to real shit so here's a free pill Back to back like Meek Mill if you need a refill yeah If you need a refill Hey, sweetie Ugh, I'm sending you a big hug, my love I was just thinking about you too Just hang in there, just for today Just for today, papi, know that I love you Know that this too is gonna pass and it sucks And I'm so sorry, I am so sorry, my heart bleeds for you What you're going through, all of this You can do this though, I know you can Just right now, need you strong too I love you, I love you so much baby Bye, honey And I'm all yours, all yours And I'm all yours (Show me) I'm all yours, all yours I'm all yours