Mind the Gap (feat. Lex Amor)

Mmm, okay Cool I was not prepared She called me a good person, I was like "You lost me there" I got fam in foster care 'cause it wasn't my cross to bear Lots of prayers long distance, but life's not as fair For a child with a problem parent Not comparing or judging, not as caring Must have lost my bearings My vision is tunnel, I live in a bubble But living's enough, I've been in the struggle So I send P's but can't listen to troubles Forgive me I love you but I live a life paved with lies Every day I say I'm fine, then lay awake at night Contemplating ways to fly but then I stabilise I stay alive Take my time So they only see me in right state of mind We all rise and decline I don't want to live a life they designed Take my time So they only see me in right state of mind We all rise and decline Now, what do I owe? What do I give? Feel like Babylon owes me everything Bus stops in winter taught me all about a wish, darg Feeling, I been feeling things Demons ere I musta let a couple in Something for the cold Something for my questions marks My yes's and my no's Is this everything I get? Spirit feeling it but my mind a bloody mess Can't lie my guy, my mind a bloody mess Tonight I think I hit the belly, mazza mazza what a mazza Wish someone would tell me I just woke up In a sweat Not much I can do to force a happy ever after Imma pick the ink, swish my wrist, pray that it connects again I'm praying it connects Not sure what I'm doing here been hoping for the best Still fidgeting and restless Consciously in awe of possibility and essence I just think I need a rest Would you please give me a sec Tonight Jigga told me she believes the ends'll make amends Wish someone would tell me I been fighting with this passa Why's When's and How's drowning out my fathers "Yo" When I'm cold like everyone I know's known a mazza Praying vim'll back it But jacket's wither in the cold Shoulda known Dash my phone Let me lie down here in silence man I'm tired