Suicidal

Yeah Tribulations come along with trials Lately I'm just tired of tryna fake a smile Maybe I'm just hurting or just in denial But I've been feeling like this for a while My anxiety is my biggest rival When I feel lost I tend to read the bible See I'm just tryna be my biggest Idol But lately I've been fucking suicidal, shit I always wonder if it's getting better I really feel as if it's getting worse I haven't been myself since last September They say I'm blessed I think I'm really cursed See I'm not sure if it's my time to go I think it's something only time would know I feel like Roddy Ricch, I'm down below I know there's hope, I know there's time to grow I mean cause lately, I'm just down alone I'm just so down alone Fuck Tribulations come along with trials Lately I'm just tired of tryna fake a smile Maybe I'm just hurting or just in denial But I've been feeling like this for a while My anxiety is my biggest rival When I feel lost I tend to read the bible See I'm just tryna be my biggest Idol Look But lately I've been fucking suicidal I hope you... Love me before they all pretend to Love me with my flaws and heal my mental I would love you even if it's detrimental Because at some point in my life you were so fucking special And toward you, I could never be resentful You saw me as the greatest and you saw my full potential I hope you never get regretful Nah I hope you never get forgetful Wish that you could hug me one last time and take the pain away I pray that we find each other, never let this fade away Tried to fucking leave but I just feel like I can't stay away Even when I'm gone, I really hope that you don't stray away But I don't wanna leave this earth Before I get the chance to tell you everything you're worth See you bring out the best in me when I'm feeling the worst If I could put you anywhere, I'd always put you first 'Cause every day without you fucking hurts Tribulations come along with trials Lately I'm just tired of tryna fake a smile Maybe I'm just hurting or just in denial But I've been feeling like this for a while My anxiety is my biggest rival When I feel lost I tend to read the bible See I'm just tryna be my biggest Idol But lately I've been fucking suicidal See I'm just tryna be my biggest idol But lately I've been...