I’m staying in tonight

I won’t stop you from leaving

I know that I’m not what you wanted

Am I

Wanted someone who I used to be like

Now you think I’m not trying

I don’t argue, it’s not worth the effort

To lie

You don’t want to bring it up

And I already know how it looks

You don’t have to remind me so much

How I disappoint you

Suggest that I talk to somebody again

That knows how to help me get better

And till then I should just try not to miss any more

Appointments

I think if I ruin this

That I know I can live with it

Nothing turns out like I pictured it

Maybe the emptiness is just a lesson in canvases

I think if I fail again

That I know you’re still listening

Maybe it’s all gonna turn out alright

And I know that it’s not

But I have to believe that it is

I have to believe that it is

I have to believe that it is

(I have to believe it, I have to believe it)

I have to believe that it is

(Probably not, but I have to believe that it is)

When I tell you that you that it is

Oh, it's not for my benefit

Maybe it's all gonna turn out alright

Oh, I know that it’s not

But I have to believe that it is