Nefastus

Eyes wide Thoughts race back and forth in my mind I've lied To myself and those by my side Now I'm Stuck in the hell of my own mind I'd like To say I don't but I deserve this Everything goes black Memories pushed to the back Numb my head so I don't recall any of this A mess of a life, the times that I've tried To pull myself out of the shift in the tide I'm giving up, I've never been enough So tell me I'm not the only one So tell me I'm not the only one So tell me that I'm not the only one Fighting off their demons 'til they see the sun First instinct is to turn and run But the dye is cast and nothing can be done Everything goes black Memories come rushing back Barrel to my head I can't go on like this Alone with my thoughts I'm left here to rot The slip of a finger and I fire the shot Bathed in my own blood Lying in the mud Crashing down in front of me All my dreams, my aspirations, who I thought I would be And now I'm Tortured by my fleeting sanity Tie the noose now Sweep my feet out And watch me fucking swing