I Wanna Have Faith

Lately, when I close my eyes to pray

I can't find the words to say

I'm speechless at questioning delight

And wondering why am I so blind?

Depends on what I've left undone

Or have heard or said or won

The pressure that fills my room

And molds me while I sleep

It's killing me

Oh, I'm on my knees and yet

I wanna have faith again

I wanna have faith

When I can't see plan

I wanna have faith again

I wanna have faith

But I'll go inside my head

Speaking for the living dead

Distraction, enough dissatisfaction to deny

The wool in my eyes

I'll weave a question mark so wide

That when laid upon its side, it hugs me

It scratches, beats, and proves me that I'm numb

And meaningless

Is this the truth, or am I choosing it?

I wanna have faith again

I wanna have faith

When I can't see the plan

I wanna have faith again

I wanna have faith

What if I like it?

Being in control

'Cause are you even here to hold?

'Cause if there's nothing

Where do I go?

If my destiny is purely chemistry

Then why, why do I want more?

I jump cause sometimes I can't fly

Leave my anger far behind

The moment where anything is possible for me

Is that, is that, is that belief?

Love ain't false, but it's a mystery to me

I wanna have faith again

I wanna have faith

And it falls from fingers, clasping it

I wanna have faith again

I wanna have faith

When will I stop the thought of questioning?

I wanna have faith again

I wanna have faith

And I'll scream until My God starts a-whisperin'

I wanna have faith again

I wanna have faith