Honest With Myself

Is it morning or is it afternoon Light is blinding The sunshine feels foreign on my face And all I feel like is a mistake Got an awful taste in my mouth Am I giving up too soon Wanna get up But I can't seem to muster up the strength My sanity is crumbling to waste And a solitary question remains Am I honest with myself Am I telling the truth to the face in the mirror That's scaring me now half to death Am I honest with myself Can I admit when I need help When I'm still lying in bed at three pm Saying I'll get up when I feel well enough Am I honest with myself Am I broken I used to feel alive I'm just numb now I wish I could fill this empty space Let anger or sadness take its place Cause it's better than feeling nothing at all I need somebody that I can call Someone to tell me that it's okay That I just need some serotonin in my brain But am I brave enough to say Am I honest with myself Am I telling the truth to the face in the mirror That's staring me down half to death Am I honest with myself Can I admit when I need help When I'm still lying in bed at three am Hoping I fall asleep and never wake up Am I honest with myself I don't want your pity I don't want your love I just want to be alone I just want to be alone I don't want your pity I don't want your love I just want to be alone I just want to be alone I don't want your pity I don't want your love I just want to be alone I just want to be alone I don't want your pity I don't want your love But don't you dare leave me alone Don't you dare leave me alone Am I honest with myself That I'm lost and afraid but I need to have faith It's okay if things don't always make sense Am I honest with myself With any hope that I have left I've gotta try to be brave as I get up and pray That maybe one day I will feel well enough If I'm honest with myself