I've been alone for to long

Really f*cking with my mental you can hear it in my songs

Maybe I'm way to picky and doing it all wrong

On my own till I'm 50 so I gotta stay strong

I can not look for attachment cause love will be absent

I need to be patient but want to take action

I look for that sh*t day and night I'm so restless

Is God playing games or is he teaching lessons

Know that I'm impatient but I feel like I deserve it

All these b*tches want my attention but without purpose

Getting older everyday I see couples I'm getting nervous

When will that be me cause lowkey I am feeling worthless

Is it even meant for me cause I don't see it happening

Keep on drinking bottles and bottles filled up with medicine

Every time a lady talks to me I feel adrenaline

Hoping that she'll be the one

Don't know what is going on

Everybody seems to fall in love

Looking all around I see empty cups

I am throwing up yeah

I am throwing up

There are tears in my face and in my red cup

I've been alone for to long

Really f*cking with my mental you can hear it in my songs

Maybe I'm way to picky and doing it all wrong

On my own till I'm 50 so I gotta stay strong

I can not look for attachment cause love will be absent

I need to be patient but want to take action

I look for that sh*t day and night I'm so restless

Is God playing games or is he teaching lessons