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What am I up to You never checked on me when I was down baby fuck you You get love too She wanna know where I been wanna what I've gone though Love make me nauseous There ain't a girl that I've met that don't make me feel cautious Love is too painful I can't be sitting here questioning if shawty faithful Girl you told me you loved me so why did you leave Kept me warm in the night till you left me freeze Call me a lie but don't call me a cheat You did that in your own bitch it ain't hard to see I been depressed since you did that to me Harder than said when they tell me to breathe What have I come to I wasn't always addicted to drugs I used to pop me a pill when I want Now I can't sleep since I quit smoking blunt Life ain't a blessing After my daddy left I couldn't help but stop stressing Ain't tryna press him But I think the problems I have need a little addressing Shits been tough for me since I left you Girl don't fuck with me like I wrecked you Shits been tough for me since my dad left Brands don't fuck with me for my bad rep I been running from my demons lately Fuck the money it won't help me face these Suicide just can't help but plague me Every night I need help come save me What am I up to You never checked on me when I was down baby fuck you You get love too She wanna know where I been wanna what I've gone though Love make me nauseous There ain't a girl that I've met that don't make me feel cautious Love is too painful I can't be sitting here questioning if shawty faithful Girl you told me you loved me so why did you leave Kept me warm in the night till you left me freeze Call me a lie but don't call me a cheat You did that in your own bitch it ain't hard to see I been depressed since you did that to me Harder than said when they tell me to breathe I need patience I done tried meditation This is deeper think I need medication Where you been I think they want explanations Fuck your angels I'm the devils creation Went to a psych ward I was not psyched for it Fuck all these white boards they just make my eyes sore They made me listen and gave me prescriptions I had listen to all their descriptions I just wanna sleep Baby let me be I don't wanna speak Let me be in peace I just wanna die Life is such a lie Drinking more codeine I ain't tryna cry Please don't phone I will not reply What am I up to You never checked on me when I was down baby fuck you You get love too She wanna know where I been wanna what I've gone though Love make me nauseous There ain't a girl that I've met that don't make me feel cautious Love is too painful I can't be sitting here questioning if shawty faithful Girl you told me you loved me so why did you leave Kept me warm in the night till you left me freeze Call me a lie but don't call me a cheat You did that in your own bitch it ain't hard to see I been depressed since you did that to me Harder than said when they tell me to breathe