You want to talk about pain?!

So you think I like to talk about pain,

Nothing more pains me more than to entertain,

I don't need to hear I'm not doing too great,

Yes I know it's too late,

Irritate, incubate,suffocate, celebrate!

Why can't you just let me go?

If you're so convinced then just leave me alone,

Don't need sympathy, no need to cry,

Happy days just aren't so easy to come by

Should I just play pretend?

Cut the cackle while everybody else takes a trip

Around the inside of my head?

Are you fucking blind?

Nothing can bring me a smile,

Not no kids, not no wife, crooked grin, happy life!

Do you feel ok?

Who the fuck cares? None of your business

Do you want to see what pain is?

Then take a look deep, deep in my fucking eyes!

So let's talk about pain!

Now do you see why I'd rather just bottle up,

Eliminate, eradicate,

Suppress the ails,

Leave me to bullshit and tell you that I'm fine,

An open casket to the end of my life!

Ten fifty six

Ender.