Curtains closed nowhere to go

Lost in the current that swept us up

I guess that I was wrong again

I said we'd be fine but now we're not so typical

Lying again while im saying im not saying im not

A tragedy no minds at ease

I'm scared of letting go and forgetting it

Sleepless nights and haunted eyes look in my mind and see what's behind

So mystical

How could a kid have thoughts like this thoughts like this

Thoughts like this

And I know that I cried when I told you I was fine

And I know that I lied but why would you have to know that tonight

And you say it's okay if I'm not alright but I'd rather be lying than for you to know I've been crying

Eyes on me and sympathy

I love you and are you holding up

You wait to see finally

How I breakdown cause it's just too much

But I don't

I'm better at hiding things than I thought

Than I thought

And i crack a joke light a smoke

A temporary high to make it all stop feel like I'm dying while I'm smiling

My ways to cope are to turn it all off turn it all off

Turn it off

And I know that I cried when I told you I was fine

And I know that I lied but why would you have to know that tonight

And you say it's okay if I'm not alright

But I'd rather be lying than for you to know I've been crying

I say I'm fine but did I think it through

I'm happy but when I am in my room

A slide show in my mind with pictures of them

Something is happening I can't relent

But if I don't say it might not be true and I would give anything for just one day with you