Coffee

Haven't had my morning coffee Yet to roll out of the bed Tired eyes barely open They're cutting onions in my head Yeah they got me where they want me Fighting the voices that ain't there Twenty minutes out the door though Girl you gotta go go Cause a bitch gotta pay the rent But it all goes away when the day goes dark And I turn do not disturb on As I'm lying there quietly holding on Hoping I don't wake up till dawn There's a mirror in the TV Playing back the things I said Like do these people even see me Or do I imagine they are there Uninvited to my pity party There's no way I won't argue Disassociation on my end Going with the flow knowing the world will never owe her And she's responsible for herself But it all goes away when the day goes dark And I turn do not disturb on As I'm lying there quietly holding on Hoping I don't wake up till dawn My makeup it hides all the bags I own No Hermes it's just her alone Draw the lipstick line up above my cheek bones So my smile hides the exhaustion You might think that I'm always chill I do things that you wouldn't believe I stay calm when the waves go still I put my heart right on my sleeve I don't care if you're ready to go If I'm not done I'm not ready to leave Nineteen when I hit my first mil And me and TK had our songs on repeat I won't drown even though I got deadlines tryna I defend my inner peace I see my name in all of the headlights cause I extend my winning streak Say it's a game but it's never that simple If it was it'd be hide and seek I excel and for that I'm the symbol So there's silence whenever I speak But it all goes away when the day goes dark And I turn do not disturb on As I'm lying there quietly holding on Hoping I don't wake up till dawn My makeup it hides all the bags I own No Hermes it's just her alone Draw the lipstick line up above my cheek bones So my smile hides the exhaustion