Delusional

Think that I might be losing my mind I apologize If I seem a little crazy Ever since opening up my eyes I just don't feel right And my thoughts come in hazy 'Cause for what feels like years I've been trying to pretend Everything in my life is amazing But I know the truth When I close my eyes I'm scared to realize I can't trust The way that I feel Cause I can't tell What's made up or real There's this Silly little fantasy made up in my head Seems like losing my mind is better than Losing myself instead Think that I might be losing my mind 'Cause I'm terrified Of what's waiting there for me If I decide to decline My deep lies And come back down to reality 'Cause for what feels like years I've been trying to pretend There's a world where you never leave But I know the truth When I close my eyes I'm scared to realize I can't trust The way that I feel Cause I can't tell What's made up or real There's this Silly little fantasy made up in my head Seems like losing my mind is better than Losing myself instead