Promise I'm Trying

I go out, find a crowd Never say who I am Then I go make a joke Make 'em laugh 'cause I can On my own, I don't know how to get out of my head Million likes, million eyes But every high comes down To me alone, missing home Wishing that I could bounce back like I used to But I don't know how to I promise, I promise I'm trying I know it might not look like it When you see me singing on side walks You laugh and tell me that I got no reason not be happy But I barely made it through last week I can't stand me being like this 'Cause everything's harder to fight it But I promise, I promise I'm trying Pretty girls only work 'til I go mess it up And a glass only lasts 'til the next morning comes I don't know how to stop it I'm low on my options But I promise, I promise I'm trying I know it might not look like it When you see me singing on side walks You laugh and tell me that I got no reason not be happy But I barely made it through last week I can't stand me being like this 'Cause everything's harder to fight it But I promise, I promise I'm trying Don't wanna let you down I don't wanna let you down I don't wanna let me down I promise, I promise, I promise I'm trying Might not look like it When I'm singing on side walks Everyone tells me that I got no reason not be happy But I barely made it through last week I can't stand me being like this 'Cause everything's harder to fight it But I promise, I promise I'm trying