Afraid

I hear you calling, so alluring

Tell me it's okay, 'Cause I'm so despondent

Always falling, I will never change

So I'll drift away now, betray the sweet sound

The promise of better days

I've tried everything I know, I can't kill it

This thing inside, terrorizing me 'till I feed it

I'm afraid to feel again

I'm not okay, it never ends

Mind is racing all the time

I'm so damn sick of living this lie

It's 3 in the morning waking up, don't remember what happened

Reach to my side, grab the bottle as the panic creeps in

The sweet relief takes ahold of me, oh I hate it

Would rather die than live another day feeling like this

All my hopes and all my dreams are gone

Thrown away, and it's all my fault

It's all my fault, it's all my fault

I'm afraid to feel again

I'm not okay, it never ends

Mind is racing all the time

I'm so damn sick of living this lie

Living this lie

All my hopes and all my dreams are gone

Thrown away, and it's all my fault