Spinning

I'm making strangers out of friends

Turning ride or dies into enemies

Cause I'd rather just pretend

Instead of facing my reality

I'm so afraid to admit that I don't got my shit down

I'm chasing anything I can to keep my feet off the ground

God I hope it gets better

Tell me I'mma get better

Doing shit that I never

Thought I'd ever do ever

The room is spinning

My ears are ringing

These nights are killing me and I know I won't stop

And when I wake up my gums are still numb

Hate who I've become but I don't know how to stop

Kinda sad that I spend my nights

Hanging out with a crowd I don't even know

But I'll hang if it gets me high

All I need is a drink and I'm letting go

I'm scared that I cannot weather through a storm without some substance to use as an anchor

What am I running from

God I hope it gets better

Tell me I'mma get better

Doing shit that I never

Thought I'd ever do ever

The room is spinning

My ears are ringing

These nights are killing me and I know I won't stop

And when I wake up my gums are still numb

Hate who I've become but I don't know how to stop

God I'm a mess

I've lost my head

The fabric of my life is starting to unthread

And if there's a chance that I can get back

To who I was before I got off these tracks then I'm folding both my hands

The room is spinning

My ears are ringing

These nights are killing me and I know I won't stop

And when I wake up my gums are still numb

Hate who I've become but I don't know how to stop