I was 12 and a half

The first time a boy called me fat

We were at a dance

My hair was down

Jason came and asked me out

As a joke and all his good friends laughed

I wonder if he ever thinks about that

Didn't know how to hate myself til I learned it from someone else

Didn't see what was wrong with me

Just lived in my body

Did my best to lose the weight

Hoping the hurt would go away

But damn skinny feels just the same

I'll always carry

It in my body

My grandma paid me by the pound

Said I should try to slim it down

Went to meetings with my mom

The less I ate the more they applauded

Being hungry made me feel so proud

I'm still not full yet ten years out

Didn't know how to hate myself til I learned it from someone else

Didn't see what was wrong with me

Just lived in my body

Did my best to lose the weight

Hoping the hurt would go away

But damn skinny feels just the same

I'll always carry

It in my body

I'm carrying what Jason said

All the comments from my mom and dad

None of it was ever even mine

I could of lived my whole life just fine

Didn't know how to hate myself til I learned it from someone else

Didn't see what was wrong with me

Just lived in my body

Did my best to lose the weight

Hoping the hurt would go away

But damn skinny feels just the same

I'll always carry

It in my body

I'll always carry

It in my body

I was 12 and a half

The first time a boy called me fat