Manateen

I feel like I'm becoming a butterfly

Or a golden bee

My smile is like razorblades

When I smile it cuts bloody deep

My body is on the magazines

My face on the TV

My voice on the radio

That's me in my dreams

But when I open my eyes

I see I'm a piece of shit

A worthless coward

A vapid whore

A moral-less refugee covered in sores

A blithering sea cow

Lost in its dreams

Nobody likes me, yeah

Nobody wants me at all

Nobody likes me, yeah

Wet blue world, it fills me up

I find I'm deep inside

Waves crash and I breathe water

But I haven't died

I won't come up

I won't come up for air

I won't come up

I won't come up for air

And beneath the waves

I hide my head in darker waters

And nobody sees

I cut myself

And hope to draw you in

But even the sharks pass by

Someone please explain

All alone I'm growing colder

Laughter like cancer over my shoulder

Mirrors like hatchets to the wound of my face

You know I'm a complete, I'm a complete disgrace

I'm not a manateen

I'm not a manateen

Just leave me alone

Just leave me alone

And beneath the sea

I give up and I descend

And I'm finally free

Wet blue world, fills me up

Fills me deep inside

Waves crash and I breath water

But I haven't died

Never

With a furious poison in my heart

Will I return from the darker waters

I let the tide tear me apart

Never

With furious poison in my veins

Will I return from the darker waters

I won't hold my breath and wait for change

I die, it's a suicide

My body swallowed by the big blue violence

This is the endless tide

I won't come up

I won't come up

I won't come up for air tonight

I won't come up

I won't come up

I won't come up for air tonight

Cold

And all alone

I held my own

Now I give up