Seventeen

I don't know how I got this scared

I was a wild thing once

Did I always have to fight for love?

I get so anxious it's not there

Under blankets in your mother's house

Remembering the moment you first let me down

I know that feeling, suffocating under your skin

Someone claw it off

I break all my boundaries as soon as I get lonely

Someone stronger told me it's okay to fail sometimes

But I fold so often I'm scared my word means nothing

Seventeen I should have up and left the boy behind

I don't know how it got this bad

I had nerves of steel

Til you taught me that my dreams aren't real

Said you're the best I'll ever have

And then you turned me into someone else

Remember the first promise I broke to myself

I know that feeling, suffocating under your skin

Someone claw it off

I break all my boundaries as soon as I get lonely

Someone stronger told me it's okay to fail sometimes

But I fold so often I'm scared my word means nothing

Seventeen I should have up and left the boy behind

But I couldn't, I froze

I was afraid to say no

I'd blame myself when you'd go

You were older you should have known

And if I just left then

Left you crying on that old park bench

Maybe I wouldn't be so scared of men

Who make me doubt the things that I know

But I break all my boundaries as soon as I get lonely

Someone stronger told me it's okay to fail sometimes

But I fold so often I'm scared my word means nothing

Seventeen I should have up and left the boy behind