My mood is swinging like a fucking pendulum

Fighting this continuum

Constantly stressed out and sick of it

Oh shit

I went and flipped the table again

Because my brain won't stop this game where it likes to pretend

Things are so much worse than they actually are

How I'd love to see this world

Like you do

I keep on making promises that I can't keep

All I wanna do is sleep

Stare at the ceiling and shut my eyes

I cry

And I don't even really know why

I do my best to get some rest but something doesn't seem right

Things feel so much worse than they actually are

How I'd love to see this world

Like you do

One day I'll be okay

Or at least I hope so

Cause I know there's beauty in the world

And I wanna see see

I wanna see it all

Am I trying to convince myself or you

That I'm gonna work harder to see this through

Am I trying to convince myself self or you

But I wanna get better and that's the truth