Suffering In Silence

Five years off the chemicals, I'm still scared of my own brain

Took time but I'm miserable, still scared of my old ways

They ask if I'm fine, I tell them a lie

The truth of the matter I'm broken inside

I'm trying to climb, been fallin' behind

And if I don't make it, don't think I'll survive

I can't let my demons out, so I gotta keep fightin'

And I can't let 'em break me down, so I'm just suffering in silence

So I'm just suffering in silence

I've been suffering in silence

Why would you want this life, I don't leave this house

I stopped doing drugs, so I don't go out

And people been talking, they been fillin' me with doubt

Like maybe I should go back on em

Go and buy a brand new bottle then I'll fuck my life up

Go and see the reaper, ask him when's my time up

Pop another pill, black out

Tell 'em I'm done, I'm done

And I can't say all the things that I feel

I just throw away my heart in the furnace

So go ahead and run, I'll just walk away

Everybody does in the end

Run, I'll just walk away

Everybody does in the end

I can't let my demons out, so I gotta keep fightin'

And I can't let 'em break me down, so I'm just suffering in silence

So I'm just suffering in silence

I've been suffering in silence