death doesn't always come running when you call it

I hope I die before it's time to make some grown decisions

Once I show my vision

Get the dough, my flow precision

So close to winning

Pour my soul in every verse I've spitten

I don't listen to nobody except my intuition

I love my girl, but I'm afraid that she gon' slow the mission

Or something different that I'm too afraid to talk about

Cause I don't wanna hear it

Nah, I'd rather fly in spirit

Get the fuck up outta dodge

Then have to say I'm sorry for a bunch of shit I'm really not

Lessons I done been forgot

Battles didn't win but fought

Lying to the mirror like man you gon' make this worth the plot

Learning what I wasn't taught

Learning what I wasn't taught

What's it called, fuck I forgot

Henny shots for plenty thots, shaking ass on rented yachts

Trap you with a baby if they can't get you to tie the knot

Wanted you and every bop, had the world I let it drop

Crashed out in October, it was almost suicide by cop

Stashed the Glock inside the box

Fully cocked, while bumping Dot

Police pulled they pistols when they saw

I prayed they'd set it off

Thought about, let me stop

Cause if I get to talk that talk about my mental health

They'll start to thinking Steven's getting soft

Fuck this shit

I hope I die outside of California

Somewhere they're glad to know ya

Had it with the sandy land

I'll trade these shorts and tan for padded Patagonia

Hell's been frozen over ever since I crawled up out

Made it to LA, ain't nothing changed except a bigger house

Could've gone a different route

Picket fence with bitching spouse

Only round the holidays, my dick could fit inside her mouth

Bills ain't getting paid off working wages

Scared to ask for raises

Know my shit will pop

Because it's hotter than what's on your playlist

Know my shit will pop if I could focus for a fucking sec

Tie the noose around my neck and pray the lord forgives me

I'm just empty, burn the building

Hope my soul lifts out the chimney

When the smoke clears and dust settles

You could hold me in your memory