Trying to fix up everything on myself

I’m healing damage from all the situations that dealt

A bunch of faults and deep cracks that leave me closed off lately

If the circumstances different I hope I’m changing up

Before therapy I wanted you back

Before I had grown I wanted to know that

Now I’m looking straight into my soul

It’s staring back at me and seeing through

Cause I’m on E my psyche is on the road

And my old friends they only wanted to get my gold

And my mommas on the phone telling me I’m never wanted

Where do I go from here

From here

I thought you’d fuck up my lifestyle

But it was my fault

I can’t blame you from right now cause

Everything in the future gone be me staying

I can’t look at you no more when I’m lazy

Here come the bass you wanted

Don’t feel shit if not recorded

I can’t come out on top

And I feel a type of way

When you can’t even let me be

Follow my passions

Hope they fixing my problems

I just wanted to function

In a place where I’m nothing

Manufactured personality

This isn’t really me

I could be who you want to see

If you just let me in

Open the door

Holding me close

I don’t wanna close anymore

Folding my woes

I been feeling broke for too long

Missing all of my goals

Hoping that you lending down any rope

The hole that I’m digging it’s keeping me down

The sun ain’t been shining my way for a while

I’m pale as the paper I’m writing this on

While jotting experience I feel it

Falling

I

I can’t ever stop

I done lost all my trust

You know I

You know I

You know I

Falling

I

I can’t ever stop

I lost all my trust

You know that I’m falling

I

I can’t ever stop

I lost all my trust

I lost

Everything

Due to hating myself

Though you trust me not to bring you down

I can’t keep up with my promise

And I

Know you think I’ve fallen off

I’ll meet you right in the middle

I’ll see if you wanna belittle me

Like I do

Throw myself on the griddle

Cause I’m hoping that I could

Fall in

Fry

Leave everything behind

It’s the best way to die

With no one in mind