Yeah, uh

A bit afraid to admit that I've been stuck in my ways

As of late

I bask within the ultra violet sun rays

Some days

I try to stay out of the range of a pedestrian's gaze

Staying in my lane might be enough to drive me insane

Lost within the walls inside my head resembles a maze

Remains solid but it's subject to change

A good relationship is hard to maintain

I grew up fast and it feels so strange

I know too much nowadays

Trying hard just to make myself useful

Being there for everybody is just something I'm used to

They all watched as I reach out though the attempt was so futile

The darker days that I've had was filled with dilated pupils

I close my eyes and see complexity within the future

I learned to quit looking for everyone else's approval

Of who I am, I know now I limit my own potential

The ones that's closest to you be the ones who will resent you

I understand it now, I mean I understood it then

Brothers turned to strangers due to a certain turn of events

They asked me where the love is, I briefly tell 'em that it came and went

A couple homies died this year and I ain't been the same since

I can't believe it still

But it's life right, I gotta stay committed

Least I know I'm not alone, I walk among the Holy Spirit

And If you ever thought bout killing you

Or somebody else

Let me know how you've been feeling

My vision ain't the clearest but I listen with my ears

And I know a way to love, a better path leads on from here

It's easy to succumb to fear

But it ain't hard to switch gears

Instead of toting gats and beating on yo girl, how bout you start a career, huh

I see **** killing, with no goals on they agenda

Blasting back and forth missing, hitting women and children

We lost Saniyah way too young cause **** don't pay attention

I say I stand strong but this whole time I've been pretending

Look how we living

It seem like every time I check my phone a **** killed another ****

I swipe further and our women say they tired of ****

Tattoos and dreadlocks, white men won't hire ****

Make no mistake or they'll find an excuse to fire ****

We kill ourselves so ain't no reason to admire ****

I hope the trail I blaze is enough to inspire ****

God heal us all, the only way is going higher ****

Uhn

Take my advice and don't mention it

This ain't a rap, more of a pact between an artist and the listener

Whoever's pressing play on this recording, that I wrote one early morning, I'd say we're somewhat similar, I hope you're listening, uh

God heal us all

Okay

T?

T?

Yes?

You decent?

Yeah, Come in

Happy Birthday, Son

Thanks Ma

Nope, I don't like it, I don't like it

I need your energy right now

It's your birthday, you looking all slumped to the side

What's up?

Talk to your mom

Well, I don't know, I mean

What's wrong?

Just a lot going on right now, too much actually

And I don't know if I can like, handle it all, you know what I'm saying

So what's her name?

Huh?