"a dream.

I saw a dream.

a dream that wouldn't end.

over and over again I repeated and corrected every mistake."

okay, hold on-

all these walls keep on opening up

and it ain't seem like it's slowing back down

all these faint dreams just show what i love

now the sky seems to know what i found

i don't care i don't care

what it seems like

they were showing me the other way around

but i know i'll keep growing in the meantime

it feels like

i'm already grounded

on my own

i see within

the world you know

i sought out healing

a sonder feeling

but it won't be anymore

ooh

carmichael

worn bandage

pharmicidal

fallen idol

that i wont be

i'll just show me

you can take it or just leave it

shit you don't need to believe it

they're all counting on me, jesus

want to up and leave it

i don't wanna be

sometimes i don't wanna be this

version of myself

that i built up in my head

cos now i have to help

instead of feelin like i'm dead

all the time

all the time

there's nobody that can help me out

i'm just thinking that i don't know how

yeah

i see within

the world you know

i sought out healing

a sonder feeling

but it won't be anymore

ooh

carmichael

worn bandage

pharmicidal

fallen idol

that i wont be

i'll just show me

you can take it or just leave it

shit you don't need to believe it

they're all counting on me, jesus

want to up and leave it

i don't wanna be

sometimes i don't wanna be this

version of myself

(ooh)

that i built up in my head

(carmichael)

cos now i have to help

(worn bandage)

instead of feelin like i'm dead

(pharmacidal)

all the time

all the time

(fallen idol)

there's nobody that can help me out

(that i won't be)

i'm just thinking that i don't know how

(i'll just show me)

you can take it or just leave it

shit you don't need to believe it

ooh

"Before I knew it, I lost count.

I died.

Over one hundred million times."