I started addressing myself on how I handle stuff and what to adjust, began to

See all the ways I've been affected by trust and all the

Times I was let down, the times I got stuck

All the fights I've been in with people and myself growing up Was on a path of bitterness and hate for some people, but as I Started maturing I learned hateful is evil, so I've been

Working on my heart and all these walls I was building while my attention to the scars inside and out that I'm feeling

From hard times that I went through, made me tough and

That's perfect but I don't know how to adjust and let out the pain when I'm hurting, I guess

I got so used to shrugging off what really got to me that now when I wanna be open I cannot man I cannot release

So I've been working at it, learn where I should be defensive

Smile instead of look around like try to test it

Maybe I got so used to being strong in the dark

When it come to showing feelings I don't know where to start

Oay here we go again, another day to refigure the control again, I gotta say being cold on that road I lived, I never knew how it could change all the things I did, now I

Never meant to look at you like that, I didn't mean

To be mugging from the side I guess, I just get to thinking what I should do next and

Looking hrough you is something I should work on next I guess

Dang I really mean to look happy but man it's hard when I don't know how I should look when I'm happy See I can smile but my eyes stay looking at who look at me like

It's embedded in me just to read the room when they cracking

Another joke or telling stories, see I watch how you're moving Soon as I feel you twisting words I gotta call it you're shooting Away from truth man, tell it true or lie to someone who's stupid

And say what actually happened, yeah see that's a reaction I need to

I guess work on that that's it's not okay

The people got their feelings too and I don't have to say or interject on any of it, nah

It don't pertain to me but that's how I became before I found my peaace I've been working at it

Learned where I should be interjecting when they laugh instead of looking around like yeah better get to stepping

Maybe I just got so used to being strong in the dark

That when it comes to showing feelings man I don't know where to start

Okay here we go again, another day to refigure the control again, I gotta say being cold on that road I lived, I never knew how it could change all the things I

Did, now I never meant to look at you like that, I didn't mean to be bugging from the side I guess

I just get to thinking what I should do next and looking through you is something I should work on next I guess