Happy now?

They sell it like weather

Like it's a condition you arrive at and remain in, given the correct habits

Somebody asked me at work if I was happy and I said yes

Which was a lie, and also not the problem with the question

Two thousand years of serious men

And the answer they came back with

Was moderation and gratitude

Marvelous

Very useful

The best hours of my life were not pleasant

They were frightening, and I was under-slept

And I did not enjoy a single one

I'd trade every good afternoon I've had for one more of those

That should tell you what the word is worth

Nobody's happy while it's happening!

You find out afterwards

In a kitchen, doing nothing

..Nobody's happy while it's happening

It's an industry now. Have you noticed

A whole economy

Built on the assumption

That you're currently failing at it

Buy the app, buy the mattress

Buy the retreat where nobody speaks

They cannot sell you a thing you already have

So the arrangement requires you not to have it

The whole racket depends on you

Being slightly short

Nobody's happy while it's happening!

You find out afterwards

In a kitchen, doing nothing

..Nobody's happy while it's happening

And here's where I have to be honest

Which I fucking hate

I was happy. For about four months

Ninety-six, ninety-seven or so

I have no idea what I was doing at the time

None. It's gone

I was too busy waiting for the good part

The good part was the waiting

Somebody could have mentioned it

So it's real. That's the thing I can't get around

Happiness

Is real, it is small

It's almost always somewhere else

And it will not hold still long enough

To be identified

Nobody's happy while it's happening!

You find out afterwards

In a kitchen, doing nothing

Too late to enjoy it

Somebody is happy right now

And doesn't know it

It might be me. It might be tonight

Statistically, it's a Tuesday

And I'm doing something stupid

I'll find out around sixty

I'd rather not know now

It'd only ruin it.