Lost

Why do I push you away? Why do I tell you to leave me alone Like I've never got something to say? Why does this feel like I'm lying I'm tired of smiling like I've been okay I'm praying, I'm crying I look up I'm thinking how do you hear what I'm saying I'm trying to be a better person, but it's killing me inside I can't seem to understand why I never trust anybody I I feel like your never there, or maybe I never cared Maybe I'm full of pride and when you called I couldn't hear I need you right now I do I need you right now I do I need you right now I do I'm so lost without you I need you what can I say I need you what I can say I need you what I can say I'm so lost without you 'Cause this world around me is falling And it feels like I'm going to break It feels like I'm losing myself in this darkness Could you show me the way? I hope success doesn't change me, like it does usually Look in the mirror like what did you do to me? Old feelings that are creeping in Got me wondering what is new to me Forgive me for my faults Mistakes that are made that are hurting But you know who I am and you died on a cross You knew I wasn't perfect Yeah, my faith in you was certain But I'm bitter inside of a wilderness Wake up at six in the morning I wonder when I'll be tired a little less Am I selfish for wanting more? Inside of a home that we can't afford My transmission breaking down Around three-thousand dollars aside the door See when you run out of hope, you run into faith I hear your voice so I'm about to break I made a lot of bad decisions in my life I never seem to get it straight Caring less for people that I cared about I can feel my heart turning hollow Don't you promise me forever When you can't even make it until tomorrow Trust issues, yeah I got plenty Stories and scars, I got many Lust all around me, I'm weak and you know it I wonder if I'll ever be ready To be the person that I know I can be I need you to show me the way I'm stubborn, I'm bitter, I'm prideful I know what I need you what can I say? I need you right now I do I need you right now I do I need you right now I do I'm so lost without you I need you what can I say I need you what I can say I need you what I can say I'm so lost without you 'Cause this world around me is falling And it feels like I'm going to break It feels like I'm losing myself in this darkness Could you show me the way?